Healer Heal Thy Self
Many healing practitioners have shared with me their bewilderment over assuming illnesses or conditions from their clients, especially when they truly felt that their intentions were ones of loving service to another. Why would a healer or anyone become ill through healing others? First of all, it is important to remember that any condition or circumstance which your soul needs you to have, in order to purge something from within yourself or to learn a particular life lesson, you get. How you get it is a matter of harmonic convergence between demand and supply. Does it matter whether you drew your circumstance by way of a client, a passerby, recycled air on an airplane, or germs on a railing in order to initiate your process? The means is not important.
Sometimes God lovingly asks a soul to perform a type of karmic sweeping, whereby the individual takes on conditions from another, as part of conscious or unconscious agreements made to serve that soul by absorbing some of that one's karma. In the case of illumined masters, saints, and yogis who knowingly take the diseases and poisons of the world into their holy bodies, thus becoming ill by so doing, it is their conscious, loving act and gift to humanity. Yet, even without being enlightened or possessing great siddhis (divine powers), many people perform these same services to God and others; some are simply unaware of it. Either way, these acts can be likened, metaphorically, to "carrying the cross" for another, helping to ease the burden of another by carrying some of that one's illness, emotional pain, etc. To help each other in this way is part of our divine nature, even though some might say they disagree or do not remember or believe in such a concept (the Truth is not affected by anyone's opinion).
At other times, one's own pain, fear, distortions, or other negative programming will create a circumstance called "unconscious psychic mopping" (bearing the same effect and outward appearance as in the case of karmic sweeping, the difference existing only at the causal level, in that God is not asking for this to be done). Psyching mopping can be—and needs to be—eliminated, once the negative patterns causing it are identified and addressed.
The primary focus of this article is upon a specific set of negative patterns which create the psychic mopping described above, for this is the one I encounter most in the case of healers who take on the conditions of their clients. Many healers (this includes channels, doctors, shamans, psychics, intuitive healers, etc.) become ill through healing because they are attached to that which they do. The ego personality has an investment, an energetic hook, in the process. There are many types of these hooks, including: being impressed by one's own abilities, wanting to impress others, seeking approval, having expectations of (or attachment to) results, etc.
When you have expectations or attachments surrounding the result, you have placed a condition upon love. Therefore, God's unconditional love (the power that heals) cannot flow. Similarly, if you are attached to the process, you can just as easily become attached to (affected by) the illness or any of its symptoms and side effects. Furthermore, these attachments may be either conscious or unconscious and still have the same effect on the healer.
Some of these distortions stem from a gross misunderstanding of what a healer is. Humanity collectively agrees that the healer is the "doer." To that, many will say, "No. I disagree. I am the instrument, I am the vessel." Perhaps, conceptually, one might think so, but I am talking about belief systems, which are very different than thoughts or opinions. The belief system currently held on this planet is that healers "fix" people. Inherent in that distorted belief is a consciousness of Separation. It implies that the client is broken, which implies that he or she is less than the perfection of God's creation. This is tantamount to saying that God made a mistake and that God is fallible. Consequently, any healers who hold the conscious or unconscious belief that they are fixing others are, in essence, elevating and separating themselves from their clients and, ultimately, from God.
Implicit in one's understanding of healing as "fixing" there is a judgment. The origin of this judgment is, again, fear-based. People fear pain because they do not understand that pain is actually part of the healing process itself. Pain is important because it is the barometer by which you can measure your resistance (to God's will). Your soul is constantly transmuting and/or ejecting non-loving energies from your body and aura. Pain results whenever there is conscious or unconscious resistance to (i.e. control over) that very natural process.
A heart at peace knows no suffering, regardless of circumstance.
The soul never sets about with the intention of introducing pain into the body. The soul is constantly drawing situations and circumstances for the purpose of extricating the energies (and consciousness) of Separation from the self.
The pursuit of comfort and the pursuit of growth are mutually exclusive and diametrically opposed. Pain is falsely perceived as the enemy because most people are seeking comfort rather than growth. The fact that people rush to doctors to obtain pain "killers" bespeaks this self-deluding belief system. Human beings molt, just like crabs and snakes. Yours is simply not as visible... or is it? Hair, skin, cells—these all molt and replenish themselves. But so does your whole being. The one aspect of molting which humans deny, avoid, and resist the most is the molting of consciousness. Paradoxically, this is the most important part of the healing process because it affects all others and is the very vehicle for endearing you into the heart of God and for realizing your own divinity. Do you have to experience pain as part of the growth process? Absolutely not. God did not create your pain and suffering—you did. It is not growth but resistance to growth which causes pain.
It is for this reason that the soul, in its infinite wisdom, has to sometimes resort to drastic measures in order to elicit the surrender of the separate ego personality's tyrannical, fear-stricken control over the course of one's life on Earth, a life which is about nothing other than uniting with The Beloved. And every time your consciousness outgrows its shell (which can happen from one to one hundred times a day), it molts. It is the resistance to this very necessary and ongoing growth process of the soul incarnate that has come to be known as pain. Unfortunately, the antiquated paradigm of healing is still held in the collective grid of humanity's consciousness. Independent of what any healers think about themselves or their practices, it is a stain on humanity's consciousness which has yet to be fully transmuted.
In truth, the healer is not solely responsible for the healing. The healer allows and facilitates Love. Love is the power that heals. Though this is widely known, it is still only half of the Law of Healing (I prefer to think of healing as "transformation" because it does not hold the connotation that one is fixing something). The second half of the Law of Healing is faith. As love is the power that heals, faith is the power which allows love to heal. Ideally, the healer's role is to provide a clear, surrendered, unconditionally-loving conduit through which God's love can flow. The client's role is to provide faith in the healer's abilities. The healer's faith does not negate the need for the client's faith. The process and relationship is co-creative. If both aspects of the Law of Healing are not present, transformation does not occur. In cases wherein clients did not consciously acknowledge faith in the healer, God, the cure, the process, or themselves—yet still experienced "healing"—the faith was still present and strong enough in their subconscious to create the transformation.
On the other end of the spectrum is the "It's not me; it's all God" mentality. This false humility bespeaks a level of unworthiness. And beneath this false unworthiness lies arrogance and vanity. It is God, and it is you as God and as an extension of God. It is all co-creative. We are all created by God, in His/Her image, and endowed with God's own divine nature and gifts. To deny this is to deny God, and to deny the God within you.
There is a place which lies in the center, a place neither boastful nor shameful—the place of the "I AM." To know oneself as God while at the same time reverently deferring to the supreme power and majesty of God is a sign of mastery. From this state of transcendence, true humility is born. It is from this state of being that a true healer can bring unconditional self, unconditional God, and unconditional love to the table. If you really want to see magic happen, see all your clients as whole and perfect as they are now, prior to rendering your services to them. Then watch the glory and power of God's love further perfect their already-perfect expression of themselves as God. This is the true essence of healing.
The deeper your surrender and detachment become, the more impervious do you become to all outer circumstances. It is from this state of consciousness that the healer heals itself. The purification of the self, in turn, purifies and expands one's gifts as a healer. With this new model in place, not only would you no longer be adversely affected as a result of healing others, you would become uplifted and exalted by doing so. Aches and pains would start to disappear as a result of tendering clients. Even your need for food and sleep might diminish. You would find mood swings becoming shorter in duration and intensity. More and more joy would be experienced because that light of God would be flowing through, unhindered, as it was being allowed to do its deed. In this way, Love's effect on the healer would be very positive. The healer's consciousness would now be one with it and no longer be monitoring it, controlling it, or trying to do something about it. It knows what to do. It found you, did it not?
The minute the gaze falls onto your separate existence, a life-sustaining, energetic cord is cut and you spin in a downward spiral into the depths of illusion. Again, it is all about perception—very different from avoidance and denial, which many practice. While you are dealing with, and growing through, your circumstance, the gaze must not fall from God. This was the great metaphor that Jesus delivered to Simon Peter upon the Sea of Galilee. He helped him to define the illusion. The moment the disciple looked to the sea upon which they stood (the illusion), fear rushed in and he began to sink. Jesus then said to him, "Lift your gaze. Look back into My eyes and do not take them from Me." It was in doing so that he rose again to walk on water with his brother Jesus, thus transcending the illusion.
It is always and only when your gaze is transfixed on Love that you can be in the world, but not of it, and thus no longer be affected by its illusions, no matter how real they might appear.
- Louix Dor Dempriey